What Will it Look Like?

I feel that lately I've tried harder and harder to be intentional about being myself and in that I assumed I would discover my...my calling in life. Quicker I guess is what I had in mind. I see people and I see what small view I have of their life and I wonder how they got there, what made them want that role, if they felt God told them to be there or found He'd wanted them there long after they had become whatever it was they were. I feel like God has something big for me. I hope that he does. But I don't know what in the world it would be. Of course I dream of being a missionary but even that may not be what God wants for me. The whole idea of being a missionary, putting my life in danger, reaching out to the orphans, the broken, the lost in the depths of Africa seems like the peak of all things good. But I know there are absolutely Godly, beautiful, genuine people who don't.
I know that the most important thing I can do in all this thought of my future is to trust God, but even though I'm trusting Him, I still have to make decisions, pursue long term commitments (college), and its hard to know where I'm supposed to turn.
I don't want to follow the normal routine of graduating, college, and a family just because its the normal routine. I would like to take advantage of the fact that I don't have to do such and God will love me no less. In this thought though opens up so many opportunities that I have no idea what in the world to do. I do believe sometimes God just throws His plan in someone's face, but I don't think He's done that with me. At least not yet. I think His will for my life will be lived through following my passions, sometimes on a whim. Its just...there are sooooo many things I want to experience and I feel like I have to choose!
There being a missionary for one which seems like an all or nothing kind of realm to jump into, being an artist, being a musician, being a mommy, owning a boutique full of all my own creations...and I know more dreams cloud my mind on a daily basis. Its just, I want it all. Will I have it all? Does God want any of it for me? Its hard not to feel like not being a missionary is selfish, though I know its not the truth.

"For I know the plans I have for you", says the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a future and hope."
Jeremiah 29:11

I'm nervously excited to see what God's plans for me are.